You are really gone. Jason, you were and I think you will always be larger than life. You brought so much joy and charisma to life, and those left in your wake I think will always long to know what could have been. You never experienced true peace and I know you longed so much for that. You could never get out of your way though to enjoy the wonders of those around you that loved you most. You were always searching for the next best moment and I think to most of us, that was both inviting, addicting, and heartbreaking. You spent your life competing against yourself, thinking you had to be better and never settling on just being, and any of us that ever loved you, wanted that peace for you then and now. I hope you find it now. I hope you can see how many people in your life loved you, I hope you can see your connection to them clearer now, and perhaps help those longing for you heal and understand. I hope you look after them and when needed push them forward as only you can. My heart goes out to your children, may they know how much you love them, how much you have always loved them. Jason they need you to help them understand so much more than just your passing... Find your peace now Jason, heal the hearts of those grieving with the love that you were so scared to give here on earth.